I've had this a lot lately

I hate that feeling. The feeling when you're sad, but you have no idea why. You just are. In your mind you're thinking of all the bad things in your life and apply it to your emotions, making you even more. Then people ask you what's wrong and you have nothing to say. You end up, sitting there, quiet, while it seems everyone, but you, is happy.

One of the main things I have learnt this year

That people change and whether you like it or not you have to accept it. Life is not straight forward and you need to just deal with it. Stop trying to piece it all together, just move the fuck on.

People change. They end up having nothing to say to each other, even if they had been best friends the year before.

By trying to make things work you will just regret what you have said or done. No one likes regrets do they? In 40 years time you're not going to care what happened in your younger years really, your first boyfriend isn't going to be the one you will marry!

Zac Efron, be my boyfriend?

"I usually try to stay 10 paces or so behind her so she gets more red carpet time...I want people to know she's amazing:- Zac Efron

Justin Bieber is so right

"A certain amount of success with the opposite sex comes down to the simple concept: don't be a jerk"

Spice Girls vs. S Club 7

Backstreet Boys vs. NSYNC

Personally nsync aint got shit on the backstreet boys

10 things I hate about everyone

Aquarius

AQUARIUS - Does It In The WaterTrustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind, loves being in long-term relationships. Can be clumsy at times but tries hard. Will take on any project. Proud of themselves in whatever they do. Messy and unorganized. Procrastinators. Great lovers, when they’re not sleeping. Extreme thinkers. Loves their pets usually more than their family. Can be VERY irritating to others when they try to explain or tell a story. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter but will Knock your lights out..
really?

Why is life never easy

When we were young..

A picture is worth 1000 words

The Best Things in Life

• Accidently hearing something nice said about you.
• Waking up and realizing you have more hours to sleep.
• Cuddles and kisses.
• Someone telling you that they love you.
• Shopping.
• Good food.
• Family.
• Movies
• Shoes.
• Parties.
• Birthdays.
• Making new friends.
• Spending time with your friends.
• Knowing that everything will work out and be okay.
• Holding hands with someone you care about.
• Watching a sunset.
• Sleeping in.
• Taking long, hot showers.
• Starbucks.
• Knowing somebody misses you.
• You.

Happy Birthday Miley

Sometimes

Sometimes I just wish I could be nobody
No one knew who I was, therefore I would not have any regrets or made any mistakes

Its those regrets I have, which were perfect at the time, I didn't fucking think what the fuck I was fucking doing

I would not be in this crazy mess that I am in now.

Acting like it's all fucking fine
Well it's not
I don't want you to realise what you have done to me, I am a survivor, no matter what I am going to keep on fighting

Its those memories which keep me going, without them I would not get through the day.
Its those memories which I wish I never made

x

Down in the dump

I feel so exhausted. My life is a muddle, my work is too much, I've got things racing around in my head and I feel like I'm about to explode.

I need to let it all out, start over, keep at it, do not give up.


The tears stream down like raindrops on a window

School

I am really disliking school at the moment, they are throwing us all this work so that we get it done before we break up for Christmas. I have 3 aurals to learn and 2 courseworks, then ISAs, controlled assesments and various tests. Year 11 is not going to be an easy year, there is no time for messing around or slaking. PLUS in the holidays I am just going to be revising for my mocks in January, erghhhh after december I will literally have no life whatsoever.

Prince William and Kate Middleton

When I heard this news I was so happy for them, they are such a suited couple and she seems like a really great lady. I am really looking forward to how her wedding dress will look!!!!
It will definitely be a huge wedding.

No one is perfect

You eat, you’re fat. You don’t eat, you’re a freak. You drink, you’re an alcoholic. You don’t drink, you’re a pussy. You read, you’re a nerd. You don’t read, you’re stupid. You tell a secret, you’re an attention seeker. You don’t tell a secret, you’re still attention seeking. You let someone in, you’re easy. You don’t let someone in, you’re too uptight. You smoke, you think you’re cool. You don’t smoke, you’re a loser. You’ve had sex, you’re a slut. You haven’t had sex, you’re a frigid little bitch. You wear make up, you’re a slag. You don’t wear make up, you’re ugly. You can’t please anyone. ever.

Lifehouse

These lyrics pretty much sum up everything at the moment...

So far away from where you are

These miles have torn us worlds apart

And I miss you, yeah I miss you

So far away from where you are

Im standing underneath the stars

And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased

I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face

I miss all the little things

I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

Yeah I miss you

And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart

I see the shadows of your face

Just know that wherever you are

Yeah, I miss you

And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased

I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face

I miss all the little things

I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

Yeah I miss you

And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are

These miles have torn us worlds apart

And I miss you, yeah I miss you

And I wish you were here

Things to look forward to

On an upper note, I am extreamly looking forward to going to Take That's concent in June (I think it is) My Dad was able to get 8 tickets so im incredibly happy about that. Their new song is great -



Next Friday Harry Potter comes out!!!!!!!!! I had an extreamly unhealthy obbession in Year 7/8/9 but I keep it under wraps now, no one really knows apart from people who knew me then! I am very jealous of my Dad who is going to the premiere and won't take me. Though I've already been to one and met the cast!

Christmas is coming! I am sooo excited, this year I think will be better than any other. My parents are planning a party and their parties are like no other. We are having a 30foot tree in the hall which will look insane.

Im generally looking forward to all the Christmas things which will soon start happening!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Parents are going away for a week so my sister and I get the whole house to ourselves, that will definitely be an experience ;)

Remembering the Past

Recently I have been thinking about how much I would change things that have happened in the past year. It has really got me thinking about how I should think before I rush into things or get tied down with a boy whom I know is not good for me. Even though I have convinced myself that I am over this 'guy' no one is ever going to be as good as him. To me at the time, he was the perfect guy. The fact that I may seem fine is not the truth. I'm hiding it from everyone, acting fine. I just want to go back, the way it was when it was just me and you.

food

im hungry

AHH ive eaten so much recently, I really need to cut down and eat more healthy.