I miss you

When you constantly can’t stop thinking of him. When you wait for him to go online, or when you wait for a phone call or when you wait for a text. When you see something and it reminds you of him. When you talk about him to your friends, a lot. When you start to read over messages, saved conversations or you replay moments of your life with him in your head. When you realise that when you’re out, you look around to see if you “accidentally” bump into him. When you hope to talk late that night again, like you two would used to. When you realise your friends get sick of you talking about him. When you want to hug him again, or kiss him, or just be with him. When you listen to songs and you think “This was our song.” When you go somewhere and you reminisce on what happened there with him. When you think of him before you go to sleep. That’s when you know you miss him.

FTW

hun...

Karma's a bitch.

Mind Blank

Life is really great at the moment
however
I
Have
Serious
Mind
Blank
NOTHING IS ACTUALLY IN MY HEAD
I am so oblivious to everything
Its like I am separted from everything  and people are talking to me and its just all mumbling
ODD

old friend.

I saw a very friend yesterday, I'm really close to her but I hardly ever see her, and yesterday it made me realise how much I reallly miss her and her family. We had such a laugh....Her mom kept giving me hugs and I miss the times when every friday after school we would alternate between each others houses having sleepovers and I just wish that could still happen

party time

My perfect guy...

If this were a recipie, it would be the scrummiest cake in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1) Good looking
2) Good fashion sence
3) Plays rugby
4) Insane body
5) Hot hair
6) Taller than me
7) Doesn't change around his friends
8) He has to be good at sex or I will generally not be able to survive
9) Gorgeous eyes
10) Middle class family
11) Will go shopping with me
12) Buys me random presents
13) Has a good social life
14) Great taste in music
15) Will put up with watching girly movies with me
16) Really caring
17) Likes to do family things
18) Takes me out to dinner
19) Tells me I'm beautiful
20) Carries my bags for me
21) Eats a lot of varied foods but is not fat (he will play sport obviously)
22) Has a seriously sexy voice
23) Good manners
24) Gets on well with my family and friends
25) Makes me laugh
26) Will just lie in bed with me and give me massive cuddles
27) Doesn't care if I look horrible
28) Cheer me up
29) Plays with my hair
30) Lets me be who I want to be and doesn't try to change who I am
31) Lives close enough
32) Will buy me presents for no reason

I need a bit of..

spice in my life, some major drama to happen! I want someone to get preggers at school - that would definitely liven things up

im soooo deep down drenched in work, I think practically everyone is so nothing interesting is happening at the momento

bored.com

xoxo
plum october signs out of da house

Christmaka List

not long now...

1) Philips Lumea - costs a reasonable amount but will be sooo worth it
2) Juicy Tracksuit - my best friend took mine :(
3) This gorgeous leather jacket from whistles (can never have too many)
4) Wool cardi from Paul Smith , will keep me warm for those cold days..
5) Juicy Chunky Sitch Cardi
6) Louis Vuitton Alma MM
7) Canon 550D
8) D&G Ballet flats
9) Chanel Medium Shopping Bag
10) Marc Jacobs Paradise Little Janice
11) Links Black Mini Cord Bracelet
12) Links Classic Ring
13) Tiffany Hugs and Kisses Band Ring
14) Tiffany 1837 Ring
15 Rolex Lady - DateJust PearlMaster
16) ....and a little white fluffy puppy

illness

Being off school may sound like so much fun but its actually the most boring thing ever. I have been ill for the past 2 days now and its driving me insane, its soooooooooooooooooooo dull.

I will probably go in tomorrow even though I am still ill, its just too dull here.

wow, what an eventful few days

Firstly last night was the most crazy night ever. I went round a friends and there was only meant to be about 20 people going. Number 1, I drank way too much...had a horrible headache this morning and my throat kills. but anyway, during the night all these boys stormed into the house and took my friends ipod, phone, camera, vintage expensive wine, they wernt invited so we told them to leave but they wouldnt so my friend called her cousin who then called the police. by this time I was out of it. I could not see a thing. so then the police turned up, I welcomed them by running away screaming the police are here the police are here. but they were lovely, litterally so understanding. we told them everything and hopefully got the gatecrashers in trouble.
I even gave one a hug and one comforted me when I was histreically crying over a boy!

so this boy! well lets just say I am happy to say I have seen the end of this. He has moved on, got a new girlfriend and its time for me to stop getting so bogged down in all of it. yes when I found out he shagged her and she is now his girlfriend a part of me inside did hurt but then I realised why the fuck am I upset. what is there to be upset about, my friends had a massive bitch fight on his wall on facebook which probably helped, they pretty much said everything I had wanted to say for a long time and therefore it feels as if a major leaf has been lifted. Then I had a massive conversation with his new girlfriend who actually seems alright and everything is now sorted and I really wish them the best. it is probably for the best as she lives just about 5 minutes away from him so thats good, plus I know they will most likely brake up in the maxiumum of 2 months anyway so HAHA

best friends

seriously what would you do without them? they would litterally fly to the moon and back for you

this weekend has proved to me just how lucky I am to have the most incredible friends who are here for me whatever the situation whether I have boy troubles or am passed out on the floor drunk

get over yourself

you gave me a scar I cant get rid of on my left leg

your so utterly pathetic, this is the last straw. get out of my life for good
im ready
ready for a new begining
the new me

no more tears
you cant get to me
IM OVER YOU FOR GOOD.

what a wet evening...

saturday night was the wettest and coldest I have been in a long time
firstly I went to a party in a friend, at night, in the pouring rain - worst decision ever
my tights were lacy so the water just soaked through, I was wearing plimpsoles - they were drenched which lead to my feet being absolutly freezing. so cold I couldnt even feel them

I went to tesco and brought an umbrella, I litterally kissed the man at the till I have never been so happy in my life
everyone started leaving but heather and I were not getting picked up till 12 and at this point it was only 10 so we decided to get a few trains and buses back home which was LONGGGGGGGGGGG

all and all it was a major waste of time haha

but funny.

where do I see myself in 20 years time?

well, lets think.
where do I want to see myself in 20 years time?

- having a seriously awesome job! when you tell people what you do they will go "oh my god thats so amazing!!!"
- married to a lovely handsome successful man
- living in London, I like the sound of Putney or Barnes or Richmond, or maybe even more central like Kensington or Holland Park
- have two children already with another one along the way and one more in a few years time
- being able to spoil my children and have regular lunches with my girlfriends
- have an insane wardrobe full or designer clothes, shoes and bags
- throw amazing parties and entertain a lot
- let my children have all the freedom they want
- send them to private boarding schools
- make sure they have friends round on the regular
- be the coolest mom
- drive a 4x4 but have a convertable sports car for those summer days
- own a yacht and have friends on it once a month
- have other houses in New York, Dubai, Switzerland, and Portugal
- be able to go on incredible holidays, staying in fabulous hotels

This is a dream but it WILL become a reality

oh so powerful

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe