3 days until....

Gotta love a bit of the O.C

In other news.... I've now got long hair and am pregnant.

ONLY JOKING !

But I do have long hair now and have chosen my x factor audition song

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

FUCK YES! This is going to be an incredible movie

Too Long

I haven't posted in yonks !
I've been sooo busy
Good busy though !

Seen friends, been shopping, done lunch, wrapped presents, went out on the snowmobile - there's loads of snow, revised, been to Costa (a lot), chose my hair extensions which are getting put in on tuesday!! I will post a pic, produced a show, and applied for the x factor!!!!

It really has been a good good Christmas holiday so far
The house looks larrvaley !
It's less than a week now and we already have tons of pressies under the tree!!!!!!

World Aids Day

Aids affects my family, they've died from it, living with it, dying with it.

I know it's Justin Bieber but..

Justin Biebers new song (pray) is really inspirational, the music video really touches your heart and the lyrics are really mean a lot.
I recommend you watch it.

God speaks in the silence of the heart. Listening is the begining of prayer. #NeverSayNever

I've had this a lot lately

I hate that feeling. The feeling when you're sad, but you have no idea why. You just are. In your mind you're thinking of all the bad things in your life and apply it to your emotions, making you even more. Then people ask you what's wrong and you have nothing to say. You end up, sitting there, quiet, while it seems everyone, but you, is happy.

One of the main things I have learnt this year

That people change and whether you like it or not you have to accept it. Life is not straight forward and you need to just deal with it. Stop trying to piece it all together, just move the fuck on.

People change. They end up having nothing to say to each other, even if they had been best friends the year before.

By trying to make things work you will just regret what you have said or done. No one likes regrets do they? In 40 years time you're not going to care what happened in your younger years really, your first boyfriend isn't going to be the one you will marry!

Zac Efron, be my boyfriend?

"I usually try to stay 10 paces or so behind her so she gets more red carpet time...I want people to know she's amazing:- Zac Efron

Justin Bieber is so right

"A certain amount of success with the opposite sex comes down to the simple concept: don't be a jerk"

Spice Girls vs. S Club 7

Backstreet Boys vs. NSYNC

Personally nsync aint got shit on the backstreet boys

10 things I hate about everyone

Aquarius

AQUARIUS - Does It In The WaterTrustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind, loves being in long-term relationships. Can be clumsy at times but tries hard. Will take on any project. Proud of themselves in whatever they do. Messy and unorganized. Procrastinators. Great lovers, when they’re not sleeping. Extreme thinkers. Loves their pets usually more than their family. Can be VERY irritating to others when they try to explain or tell a story. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter but will Knock your lights out..
really?

Why is life never easy

When we were young..

A picture is worth 1000 words

The Best Things in Life

• Accidently hearing something nice said about you.
• Waking up and realizing you have more hours to sleep.
• Cuddles and kisses.
• Someone telling you that they love you.
• Shopping.
• Good food.
• Family.
• Movies
• Shoes.
• Parties.
• Birthdays.
• Making new friends.
• Spending time with your friends.
• Knowing that everything will work out and be okay.
• Holding hands with someone you care about.
• Watching a sunset.
• Sleeping in.
• Taking long, hot showers.
• Starbucks.
• Knowing somebody misses you.
• You.

Happy Birthday Miley

Sometimes

Sometimes I just wish I could be nobody
No one knew who I was, therefore I would not have any regrets or made any mistakes

Its those regrets I have, which were perfect at the time, I didn't fucking think what the fuck I was fucking doing

I would not be in this crazy mess that I am in now.

Acting like it's all fucking fine
Well it's not
I don't want you to realise what you have done to me, I am a survivor, no matter what I am going to keep on fighting

Its those memories which keep me going, without them I would not get through the day.
Its those memories which I wish I never made

x

Down in the dump

I feel so exhausted. My life is a muddle, my work is too much, I've got things racing around in my head and I feel like I'm about to explode.

I need to let it all out, start over, keep at it, do not give up.


The tears stream down like raindrops on a window

School

I am really disliking school at the moment, they are throwing us all this work so that we get it done before we break up for Christmas. I have 3 aurals to learn and 2 courseworks, then ISAs, controlled assesments and various tests. Year 11 is not going to be an easy year, there is no time for messing around or slaking. PLUS in the holidays I am just going to be revising for my mocks in January, erghhhh after december I will literally have no life whatsoever.

Prince William and Kate Middleton

When I heard this news I was so happy for them, they are such a suited couple and she seems like a really great lady. I am really looking forward to how her wedding dress will look!!!!
It will definitely be a huge wedding.

No one is perfect

You eat, you’re fat. You don’t eat, you’re a freak. You drink, you’re an alcoholic. You don’t drink, you’re a pussy. You read, you’re a nerd. You don’t read, you’re stupid. You tell a secret, you’re an attention seeker. You don’t tell a secret, you’re still attention seeking. You let someone in, you’re easy. You don’t let someone in, you’re too uptight. You smoke, you think you’re cool. You don’t smoke, you’re a loser. You’ve had sex, you’re a slut. You haven’t had sex, you’re a frigid little bitch. You wear make up, you’re a slag. You don’t wear make up, you’re ugly. You can’t please anyone. ever.

Lifehouse

These lyrics pretty much sum up everything at the moment...

So far away from where you are

These miles have torn us worlds apart

And I miss you, yeah I miss you

So far away from where you are

Im standing underneath the stars

And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased

I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face

I miss all the little things

I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

Yeah I miss you

And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart

I see the shadows of your face

Just know that wherever you are

Yeah, I miss you

And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased

I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face

I miss all the little things

I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

Yeah I miss you

And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are

These miles have torn us worlds apart

And I miss you, yeah I miss you

And I wish you were here

Things to look forward to

On an upper note, I am extreamly looking forward to going to Take That's concent in June (I think it is) My Dad was able to get 8 tickets so im incredibly happy about that. Their new song is great -



Next Friday Harry Potter comes out!!!!!!!!! I had an extreamly unhealthy obbession in Year 7/8/9 but I keep it under wraps now, no one really knows apart from people who knew me then! I am very jealous of my Dad who is going to the premiere and won't take me. Though I've already been to one and met the cast!

Christmas is coming! I am sooo excited, this year I think will be better than any other. My parents are planning a party and their parties are like no other. We are having a 30foot tree in the hall which will look insane.

Im generally looking forward to all the Christmas things which will soon start happening!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Parents are going away for a week so my sister and I get the whole house to ourselves, that will definitely be an experience ;)

Remembering the Past

Recently I have been thinking about how much I would change things that have happened in the past year. It has really got me thinking about how I should think before I rush into things or get tied down with a boy whom I know is not good for me. Even though I have convinced myself that I am over this 'guy' no one is ever going to be as good as him. To me at the time, he was the perfect guy. The fact that I may seem fine is not the truth. I'm hiding it from everyone, acting fine. I just want to go back, the way it was when it was just me and you.

food

im hungry

AHH ive eaten so much recently, I really need to cut down and eat more healthy.

I miss you

When you constantly can’t stop thinking of him. When you wait for him to go online, or when you wait for a phone call or when you wait for a text. When you see something and it reminds you of him. When you talk about him to your friends, a lot. When you start to read over messages, saved conversations or you replay moments of your life with him in your head. When you realise that when you’re out, you look around to see if you “accidentally” bump into him. When you hope to talk late that night again, like you two would used to. When you realise your friends get sick of you talking about him. When you want to hug him again, or kiss him, or just be with him. When you listen to songs and you think “This was our song.” When you go somewhere and you reminisce on what happened there with him. When you think of him before you go to sleep. That’s when you know you miss him.

FTW

hun...

Karma's a bitch.

Mind Blank

Life is really great at the moment
however
I
Have
Serious
Mind
Blank
NOTHING IS ACTUALLY IN MY HEAD
I am so oblivious to everything
Its like I am separted from everything  and people are talking to me and its just all mumbling
ODD

old friend.

I saw a very friend yesterday, I'm really close to her but I hardly ever see her, and yesterday it made me realise how much I reallly miss her and her family. We had such a laugh....Her mom kept giving me hugs and I miss the times when every friday after school we would alternate between each others houses having sleepovers and I just wish that could still happen

party time

My perfect guy...

If this were a recipie, it would be the scrummiest cake in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1) Good looking
2) Good fashion sence
3) Plays rugby
4) Insane body
5) Hot hair
6) Taller than me
7) Doesn't change around his friends
8) He has to be good at sex or I will generally not be able to survive
9) Gorgeous eyes
10) Middle class family
11) Will go shopping with me
12) Buys me random presents
13) Has a good social life
14) Great taste in music
15) Will put up with watching girly movies with me
16) Really caring
17) Likes to do family things
18) Takes me out to dinner
19) Tells me I'm beautiful
20) Carries my bags for me
21) Eats a lot of varied foods but is not fat (he will play sport obviously)
22) Has a seriously sexy voice
23) Good manners
24) Gets on well with my family and friends
25) Makes me laugh
26) Will just lie in bed with me and give me massive cuddles
27) Doesn't care if I look horrible
28) Cheer me up
29) Plays with my hair
30) Lets me be who I want to be and doesn't try to change who I am
31) Lives close enough
32) Will buy me presents for no reason

I need a bit of..

spice in my life, some major drama to happen! I want someone to get preggers at school - that would definitely liven things up

im soooo deep down drenched in work, I think practically everyone is so nothing interesting is happening at the momento

bored.com

xoxo
plum october signs out of da house

Christmaka List

not long now...

1) Philips Lumea - costs a reasonable amount but will be sooo worth it
2) Juicy Tracksuit - my best friend took mine :(
3) This gorgeous leather jacket from whistles (can never have too many)
4) Wool cardi from Paul Smith , will keep me warm for those cold days..
5) Juicy Chunky Sitch Cardi
6) Louis Vuitton Alma MM
7) Canon 550D
8) D&G Ballet flats
9) Chanel Medium Shopping Bag
10) Marc Jacobs Paradise Little Janice
11) Links Black Mini Cord Bracelet
12) Links Classic Ring
13) Tiffany Hugs and Kisses Band Ring
14) Tiffany 1837 Ring
15 Rolex Lady - DateJust PearlMaster
16) ....and a little white fluffy puppy

illness

Being off school may sound like so much fun but its actually the most boring thing ever. I have been ill for the past 2 days now and its driving me insane, its soooooooooooooooooooo dull.

I will probably go in tomorrow even though I am still ill, its just too dull here.

wow, what an eventful few days

Firstly last night was the most crazy night ever. I went round a friends and there was only meant to be about 20 people going. Number 1, I drank way too much...had a horrible headache this morning and my throat kills. but anyway, during the night all these boys stormed into the house and took my friends ipod, phone, camera, vintage expensive wine, they wernt invited so we told them to leave but they wouldnt so my friend called her cousin who then called the police. by this time I was out of it. I could not see a thing. so then the police turned up, I welcomed them by running away screaming the police are here the police are here. but they were lovely, litterally so understanding. we told them everything and hopefully got the gatecrashers in trouble.
I even gave one a hug and one comforted me when I was histreically crying over a boy!

so this boy! well lets just say I am happy to say I have seen the end of this. He has moved on, got a new girlfriend and its time for me to stop getting so bogged down in all of it. yes when I found out he shagged her and she is now his girlfriend a part of me inside did hurt but then I realised why the fuck am I upset. what is there to be upset about, my friends had a massive bitch fight on his wall on facebook which probably helped, they pretty much said everything I had wanted to say for a long time and therefore it feels as if a major leaf has been lifted. Then I had a massive conversation with his new girlfriend who actually seems alright and everything is now sorted and I really wish them the best. it is probably for the best as she lives just about 5 minutes away from him so thats good, plus I know they will most likely brake up in the maxiumum of 2 months anyway so HAHA

best friends

seriously what would you do without them? they would litterally fly to the moon and back for you

this weekend has proved to me just how lucky I am to have the most incredible friends who are here for me whatever the situation whether I have boy troubles or am passed out on the floor drunk

get over yourself

you gave me a scar I cant get rid of on my left leg

your so utterly pathetic, this is the last straw. get out of my life for good
im ready
ready for a new begining
the new me

no more tears
you cant get to me
IM OVER YOU FOR GOOD.

what a wet evening...

saturday night was the wettest and coldest I have been in a long time
firstly I went to a party in a friend, at night, in the pouring rain - worst decision ever
my tights were lacy so the water just soaked through, I was wearing plimpsoles - they were drenched which lead to my feet being absolutly freezing. so cold I couldnt even feel them

I went to tesco and brought an umbrella, I litterally kissed the man at the till I have never been so happy in my life
everyone started leaving but heather and I were not getting picked up till 12 and at this point it was only 10 so we decided to get a few trains and buses back home which was LONGGGGGGGGGGG

all and all it was a major waste of time haha

but funny.

where do I see myself in 20 years time?

well, lets think.
where do I want to see myself in 20 years time?

- having a seriously awesome job! when you tell people what you do they will go "oh my god thats so amazing!!!"
- married to a lovely handsome successful man
- living in London, I like the sound of Putney or Barnes or Richmond, or maybe even more central like Kensington or Holland Park
- have two children already with another one along the way and one more in a few years time
- being able to spoil my children and have regular lunches with my girlfriends
- have an insane wardrobe full or designer clothes, shoes and bags
- throw amazing parties and entertain a lot
- let my children have all the freedom they want
- send them to private boarding schools
- make sure they have friends round on the regular
- be the coolest mom
- drive a 4x4 but have a convertable sports car for those summer days
- own a yacht and have friends on it once a month
- have other houses in New York, Dubai, Switzerland, and Portugal
- be able to go on incredible holidays, staying in fabulous hotels

This is a dream but it WILL become a reality

oh so powerful

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe

29th September

exactly 4 months till my 16th birthday, I am already so so so excited.
christmaka and new year before that though!!!!!!!!!!!

snizzles

I think I have a cold coming on so I have eaten a lot of oranges to help...I hope it does help
I cannot be ill for this weekend its gonna be too funny

stupid netball was cancelled today, I was looking forward to playing for once, though I have it tomorrow
lacrosse in about half an hour - what a drag!!!

OOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I have not spoken to my obbesssion all day, I am majorly proud of myself! happy happy happy times, though I do miss talking to him...hmmm maybe after lacrosse. oh shit no I have to stop myself - act like I am not intrerested, play hard to get. CHEEKY ;)

bad roots...

this is the colour of hair I want to go...
what do you guys think?

BOOM BOOM BOOM

life is improving as the day goes on, athough mornings and evenings are the worst!
its getting easier I think, even though I feel like Bridget Jones!
music and my friends get me through

great songs -
I will survive – Gloria Gaynor
You’re no good – Carly Simon
You are so beautiful – Joe Cocker
I can see clearly now - Jimmy Cliff or Johnny Nash or Bob Marley
What a wonderful world –  Lois Armstrong
New York New York – Frank Sinatra
Girls just want to have fun – Cyndi Lauper
Respect – Aretha Franklin
Let it be – The Beatles
No woman no cry – Bob Marley
You've got a friend – Carol King
Brown Eyed Girl - Van Morrison

I don't like mondays.

Sunday night feeling are the worst. when that hand on the clock hits the 4:00 im like washababa :( my weekend is over. the worst part is knowing that I have school the next day

Monday morning - bam up at 6:30 rush around to do things and try to get to school on time (though there is dreadful traffic)

twas a good day for a monday, the lesson finished before I was able to do my Spanish oral but it sucks in a way because now I still have it lurking on my mind....

the only thing i really miss when i am at school is my doggy
aww hes so cute! hes called brody like brody from the hills!

apart from that, I really dont mind boarding

a rainy sunday afternoon

Probably the worst end to my week.

Started off having to dog walk in the pouring rain. George being off with me, I thought it would pass. but no he says we are a difficult situation! doesnt know what he wants, says he doesnt want to hurt me well he fucking well just did!!!!!! saying he hopes im alright, course im not alright, your actually such a dick. how the fuck can you do this to me then say you still want to see me next weekend

i hate hate hate hate this, its not all changed again. why has my life changed so much recently. you were the best thing my my life and now your gone

i want you back :( i dont know how im going to do this.

how the fuck am i going to move on

p.s p.s

and when I get a reply I have to wait at least 2 minutes before I reply back because otherwise I will look like the biggest clingy girl ever

p.s

oh and im pretty sure he has gone off me.

im like cling film

okay okay i've already done something i regret today, why is it that I just cannot stop my fingers from pressing that enter button

you know when you really want to talk to someone but don't want to look keen? well I just cannot resist. I neeeeeeed to talk to this one person 24/7. im addicted to him like cigarettes

dam it.

Summer '10

I know I'm a little late but I think my first post should start with my summer....

A LOT happened this summer - good and bad

Firstly I spent 4 days with my boyfriend (now my ex boyfriend) at the start of July. We visited Brighton together too.
A few days after I went off to Portugal for 4 weeks.

These 4 weeks changed my life.
First week - Freya and Heather came out to visit me there, I became very ill. Later was diagnosed with Lactose Intolerance, but thats another story. I was still able to go out every night though, haha... We met some uber cool people there. After a week though they flew back to England. The day after my boyfriend and I broke up. Even though we were together 6 months I was surprisingly fine about it!
Second and Third week - Tilly and her Family came out to stay with us for two weeks. Both our familes have been having holidays together for god knows how long. They are always so so so memorable. We went to the beach, on a yacht, sand sculptues, had barbaques, went out for dinner, swam, go karting, you name it, we did it!
Fourth week - this was my last week, I was shattered by this time. Although I had to make the most of the sun. This last week was very significant to my life right now. I met this one boy called George. At first I had no feelings for him whatsoever but these were soon to change. However everytime I saw him i was drunk!!!! But on my last night we spent our whole night together, it definitely was a night to remember...

Back in England I saw George twice before I flew out to Sardinia!!!

Sardinia was an insane holiday by itself. First I flew out there with my longest best friend Riley and a friend from my old school Caroline. It was really great us three together as we could catch up on old times.

Riley's dad owns a 100foot yacht! It really is to die for. It will have been the third timeI have been on it. The three of us had the whole yacht to outselves for 4 days before her dad, aunt uncle, sister and her friend flew out to be with us. However it did not ruin our fun. Each day brought something new. This definitely was a holiday to remember, I wasn't ready to come home but I knew that the flight home would be an experience in all!!! We flew private jet home, in a 14 seater even though there was only 8 of us. This was INCREDIBLE, we had food and movies, there were tv screens too. A flight has never gone so quick in my life. Once we landed though I knew I was back to reality.

My school work approached me..............